I’ve had no one for so long. Things were so much worse back then but I almost miss them. I haven’t been nearly as happy in the last few years. I remember how vividly I perceived the world back then and how even the cold air tasted pleasant. I remember how heavy everything felt before the pressures started cracking my nerves. Before I felt numb and before the world started to seem blurry. Even though I was aware that the lowest and most difficult parts of my life were ahead of me, I felt fine. I was okay, because you loved me.